I have been longing to tell you of the night we arrived in Lourdes France after the evening vigil of the rosary to Our Lady of Lourdes. I was so emotional, so overwhelmed, standing on holy ground and fulfilling my promise to the Blessed Mother after 32 years at the time Nina was born. So many people from so many walks of life gathered together and with each Hail Mary said I would cling to Christina weeping longing for a miracle as I had prayed for her entire precious life. After the rosary was said in many languages a lady came up to me from the crowd. She looked like my grandma (my little nana) but dark skinned and weathered, her face told a story of concern but was also one that showed love and compassion. She had a dark scarf on her head tied under her chin. She must have seen me crying over Nina holding on to her while praying. Christina was smiling she was so happy. This lady came towards me, reached up and placed her hand on the side of my face. As my tears fell down against her hand I felt an amazing sense of peace, one I had longed for for so many years. All my worry and motherly concern of watching my child suffer for so many years just went away. I felt that she understood. She just looked at me, her eyes saying, “I know your pain.” No words were ever spoken, she just looked at me, holding my face in her hand ever so gently. I had closed my eyes, taken a deep breath and when I opened my eyes the lady was gone. I thought nothing of it, just a kind old woman who saw me crying over my child and was giving me comfort. When we had come back from our amazing adventure over seas, a joyous family trip of a lifetime, we started sharing pics with family and friends and I would always mention this kind lady that came up to me in the crowd while praying the rosary. I remember my childhood friend Nancy as we sat in the family room watching pics go by. She had tears in her eyes and said, “My prayers were for you for your healing.” I told her I did find peace there, telling her about the lady that was so kind and comforting.
Three days before Christina went to be with Our Heavenly Father the lady came to me in my dreams. I was so confused as to why I would be thinking of her image. I mentioned it to my sisters, sending text messages talking to my mom just trying to make sense of it all. I told Craig and he said, “What lady?” I responded, befuddled, “The lady that came up to me after the rosary at Lourdes.” He shook his head and said, “I didn’t see her honey.” That morning, the day of her passing when we were rushing her to the hospital, I said, “Honey, the lady, she’s here to take Christina Home…I believe it’s The Blessed Mother.” Craig told me to tell her to go away, saying, “I am not ready for her to go,” while tears rushed down his face. The feeling that came over me at that moment was one of peace, just as I had felt in Lourdes. After speaking with clergy of the experience, I was crying tears of Joy just knowing that Christina was not alone and that she went with The Blessed Mother to Heaven and that She would love and care for her now. Even now I tell her, “I can just see you still so beautiful smiling that smile that would light up my heart, but this time you are free from your wheelchair and running into the arms of Our Lord…”
Excerpt from “For the Love of Christina”
I miss you so my Christina not one moment of the day goes by that I don’t think of you and your smile …my mom heart aches …but I pray one day is to be worthy of The Kingdom of Heaven to see the face of Jesus and for you to greet me with open arms and to hear your sweet voice whisper the word mom that I have longed to hear I love you with all of heart …Until then my sweet angel of God, Mom.
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Oh ever immaculate Virgin, Mother of Mercy, Health of the Sick, Refuge of Sinners, Comfortess of the Afflicted, you know my wants, my troubles, my sufferings. Look upon me with mercy. When you appeared in the grotto of Lourdes, you made it a privileged sanctuary where you dispense your favors, and where many sufferers have obtained the cure of their infirmities, both spiritual and corporal. I come, therefore, with unbounded confidence to implore your maternal intercession. My loving Mother, obtain my request. I will try to imitate your virtues so that I may one day share your company and bless you in eternity. Amen.
We call «Message of Lourdes» the gestures and words that were exchanged between Virgin Mary and Bernadette Soubirous, at the Grotto of Massabielle, during the time of the eighteen apparitions. This message can be heard as: God is love and he loves us as we are.
Lourdes in the 19th. Century was one of the main places in the district with more than 4,000 inhabitants including nobles, notaries, advocates, doctors, officers as well as manual workers, tradesmen, slate workers, small artisans such as millers. Mills were plentiful; many were dotted around outside the town, along one of the streams that flowed into the Gave – the Lapacca. Bernadette Soubirous was born in one of these, the Boly Mill, on 7th. January 1844. The bankrupt family were living in the Cachot.
On 11th. February 1858 Bernadette, her sister Toinette and a friend of theirs, Jeanne, went looking for wood on the meadows and led towards “the place where the canal rejoins the River Gave”. They were in front of the Grotto of Massabielle. Toinette and Jeanne crossed the icy water, crying out with the cold; Bernadette hesitated to do this because of her chronic asthma. She heard “a noise like a gust of wind”, but “none of the trees were moving”. “Raising her head, she saw, in a hollow of the rock a small young lady, who looked at her and who smiled at her. This was the first Apparition of the Virgin Mary
At the time of Bernadette, the Grotto was a dirty, hidden, damp and cold place. The Grotto was called the “pigs’ shelter” because that was where the pigs feeding in the area usually took shelter. It was there that the Virgin Mary, dressed in white, a sign of total purity, the sign of the Love of God, in other words, the sign of what God wishes to accomplish in each of us, deigned to appear. There is a contrast between this damp and obscure Grotto and the presence of the Virgin Mary, “the Immaculate Conception”. It reminds us of the Gospel: the meeting of the wealth of the goodness of God and the poverty of the human person. “Jesus goes to sit at the table of sinners”, “because he came to search out that which was lost”.
At Lourdes, the fact that Mary had appeared in a dirty and obscure Grotto, in the place called Massabielle, the Old Rock, tells us that God comes to join us where we are, in the midst of our poverty and failures. The Grotto is not only a place where something happened – a geographical place – it is also a place where God gives us a sign by revealing his heart and our heart.
It is a place where God leaves us a message, a message that is nothing other than that of the Gospel. God comes to tell us that he loves us, – this is the heart of the Message of Lourdes, and he loves us as we are with all our successes but also with all our wounds, our weaknesses and our limitations
ON 18TH FEBRUARY 1858 : SOME EXTRAORDINARY WORDS
During the third Apparition on 18th. February, The Virgin Mary spoke for the first time.
Bernadette held out a sheet of paper and a pencil so that she might write down her name, but the Lady replied: “what I have to say to you does not have to be written down”. This was an extraordinary statement. It meant that the Virgin Mary wanted to enter into a relationship which is of the order of love, at the level of the heart. The heart, in the Bible, signifies the very centre of the person, that which is the depth of the person.
Bernadette was right away invited to open the depths of her heart to this Message of Love.
[Lourdes : gemmail représentant une apparition de la Vierge Marie à Bernadette Soubirous] At the second statement of the Virgin Mary: “Would you do me the kindness of coming here for 15 days?” Bernadette was overwhelmed. It was the first time that anyone had addressed her in a formal way. Bernadette describes these words by saying that the Virgin looked at her ‘as one person looks at another person’. Human beings, created in the image and likeness of God, are persons. Bernadette felt that she was also respected and loved, she also had the experience of being a person. We are all worthy of our dignity in the eyes of God. Because each of us is loved by God.
The third statement of the Virgin was: “I do not promise to make you happy in this world but in the other.” We know a world of violence, lies, sensuality, profit, and war. But we know also a world of charity, solidarity, and justice. These two worlds exist on our earth. When Jesus, in the Gospel, invites us to discover the Kingdom of Heaven, he invites us to discover in our world, as it is, “another world”. Wherever love exists, God is present.
GOD IS LOVE
To experience God is nothing other than to experience love in this world. To whoever knows how to discover this, Jesus makes the following promise: “You are not far from the Kingdom of God. That is: “you have known how to discover here below this Kingdom and you have lived out your life in this Love.” This is the promise of the Virgin Mary to Bernadette. “I promise that you will discover here below another world”. And, in spite of her poverty, her illness and her lack of education, Bernadette is always deeply happy. That is the Kingdom of God, the world of real Love.
During the seven first Apparitions of the Virgin Mary, Bernadette has a face radiant with joy, happiness and light. Between the eighth and twelfth Apparitions all changed: the face of Bernadette became hard, sad and sorrowful, and moreover, Bernadette does incomprehensible things. She moves on her knees to the back of the Grotto. She kisses the dirty disgusting ground of the Grotto. She eats some bitter grass. She scrapes the ground three times trying to drink the muddy water, at the back of the Grotto, she tries sucking in a little and then throwing it away, she takes mud in her hands and she smears her face. Then the young girl turns to the crowd with her hands apart. They all say: “She’s mad!” During four Apparitions, she carried out the same actions. What is happening? Nobody understands! We are at the heart of the “Message of Lourdes”.
THE BIBLICAL MEANING OF THE APPARITIONS
These actions are biblical actions. Because “the Lady” asked her, Bernadette acts out the Incarnation, the Passion and the death of Christ. Moving on her knees at the back of the Grotto: this action recalls the Incarnation, God lowers himself to become human. Bernadette kisses the ground showing us that this act of humility is an action of the love God has for his people. Eating bitter grass at the back of the Grotto: when the Jews in the Old Testament wanted to show that God had taken on himself all the bitterness and all the sins of the world, they killed a lamb, cleaned it out and filled it with bitter herbs and then made the following prayer over the lamb “This is the Lamb of God who takes away, who takes on himself, all the bitterness and all the sins of the world.” Smearing her face with mud: when the prophet Isaiah wanted to speak to us about the Messiah he called him “the suffering servant”. “Because he carried on himself all our sins his face no longer appeared human.”He was” Isaiah specifies, “like a lamb led to the slaughter, and on his way the crowd mocked him”. At the Grotto, mud disfigures Bernadette and the crowd cries out “she has gone mad”.
[Lourdes : la source qui coule dans la Grotte des Apparitions] The actions that Bernadette carried out were the actions of freeing something. The Grotto was choked with grass and mud. But why does she free this Grotto? Because it hides an immense treasure, which must be brought out into the open. Thus, at the ninth Apparition, “the Lady” asked Bernadette to scrape the ground, at the back of this “pigs’ shelter”, saying to her: “Go to the spring, drink of it and wash yourself there”. There is only a little muddy water to begin with, enough for Bernadette to drink. At first this water is muddy and dirty then, little by little, it becomes clear.
By these actions, the mystery of the heart of Jesus is revealed for us: “A soldier pierced his heart with his lance and there immediately flowed out blood and water.” It is, as well, the depths of the mystery of the heart of the human person, created in the image and likeness of God: “The water that I shall give you will become, in you, a spring welling up to eternal life”. The grass and the mud signify the human heart, wounded by sin. But in the bottom of this heart, there is the life of God, as signified by the spring.
Bernadette was asked: ‘Did the Lady say something to you?’ She replied: ‘Yes, now and again she would say: “Penance, penance, penance, pray for sinners”. By penance we understand conversion. Conversion in the Church, as we learn from Christ, involves turning our heart towards God and towards others. “Pray for sinners”. Praying brings us to the Spirit of God. Thus we understand that sin does not make us happy. We must understand that sin is something that is contrary to the love of God that is revealed to us through the Gospel.
Le 25 mars 1858, jour de la seizième apparition, Bernadette se rend à la Grotte où, à l’initiative de l’abbé Peyramale, curé de Lourdes, elle demande à “la Dame” de dire son nom. Par trois fois, Bernadette pose la question. A la quatrième demande, “la Dame” lui répond en patois : “Que soy era Immaculada Counceptiou”, ce qui veut dire en français “Je suis l’Immaculée Conception”. Bernadette n’a pas compris immédiatement le sens de cette parole. L’Immaculée Conception, tel que l’enseigne l’Église, c’est “Marie conçue sans péché, grâce aux mérites de la Croix du Christ” (définition du dogme promulgué en 1854). Bernadette se rend aussitôt chez Monsieur le Curé pour lui transmettre le nom de “la Dame”. Il comprend que c’est la Mère de Dieu qui apparaît à la Grotte. Plus tard, l’évêque de Tarbes, Mgr Laurence, authentifiera cette révélation.
[notre dame de lourdes]
THE LADY SAYS HER NAME: “QUE SOY ERA IMMACULADA COUNCEPTIOU”
During the thirteenth Apparition Our Lady said to Bernadette: “Go, tell the priests to come here in procession and build a chapel here.” “Come here in procession” means always moving, in this life, towards others. “Build a chapel here.” In Lourdes, chapels were built to receive the crowds that came here. But these chapels are only the signs of the communion based on the love to which we are called. The chapel is the “Church” that we want to build where we are, in our family, at our place of work, in our parish, in our diocese. All Christians spend their lives building the Church, living in communion with others.